The wisdom of Drusilla

Her heart pounded and butterflies roamed free - all through her body the vibration of both made her want to throw up. Anxiety is a small word for any kind of first. The first time you public speak, the first time there are introductions, the very first meeting between two strangers.

Dru wasn't too keen on any of this. The thoughts 'why was this happening' and 'how can I get out of this' were running around and around in a huge spiral of this and that through her mind. Somethings are difficult no matter what you say and force yourself to think, meeting a boy you've only spoken to on the phone and online is one of these.

He was awesome. Starting from his shoes and ending with his hair, it was all pretty fantastic. No white trainers [yep, Mon], no skinny jeans, none of that black eyeliner and definitley no ebony dyed hair. With a sense of humour to boot. How on earth was she meant to keep her hands and mouth to herself NOW?

The first time they met, there was a trip to the amusement park - which ended up being closed. Never fear, they ambled along the harbour and piers talking. Rambling from one topic to the other with an ease she hadn't felt with anyone in a long time. It was like lightening in slow motion.

The first time ended on a great note. He was laughing and she was smiling.

She coudn't stop herself from wanting to meet him again. They made plans for the next week. Chuckles. This time he was making the plans, and she hoped perhaps this time, things would go according to plan.

Not that plans and their failure had mattered all that much last time anyway.

Mon&Me: 10 Men from the silver screen that deserve worshipping.

10. Patrick Verona - 10 Things I Hate About You

 We love the chracter, Mon's not a Ledge fan - I dont mind him as an actor but in this film- OH boy Oh Boy! Bad boy from the wrong side of the tracks who hates the world but ends up falling hopelessy in love. How can you not love that? In Mon's opinion he looks the best when he has his hair tied back in the paint balloon scene. Doesnt give a crap bout how weird ppl think he is, he just rolls with it, that alone is so damn hot. My favs the serenade attempt on the steps - re pic. *Swoon*

9. Troy - Reality Bites

Grungy, unkept, sarcastic, intelligent, smart ass and pissed off at nothing in particlar, need i say more? Oh he has long hair. Reality does more than bite, it makes us just a little more light headed.

8. Guy Patterson - That Thing You Do

We've always had a thing for drummers lol. He's goofy, sweet and genuine and Im entirely with Mon when she expresses the desire to hug him forever! My fav part is the end when, him and Liv Tyler are at the cafe and u know they want eachother but neither say anything, she leaves then he chases after her and finally the 'big kiss' moment that every movie needs. He's so cute in this film. Sadly, this was the first and last film that he was oh, so adorable in.. it all went down hill from here on..

7. Sebastian Valmont - Cruel Intentions

He's mean, sexy and absolutely incorrigible. The bad boy who turns sweet when the right girl comes along, does this not reinstate your inner girly-girl who knows she can reform the hunky bad boy? Right on it does!

6. James Wright - That Thing Called Love

He's on Mon's list by default =p He sings, he broods and he's just damn hot. This is the only movie where he had dark hair, and its long hehehe, just adds to the whole fantasy. The first kiss scene is so hot, but he looks the best in the scene where he's just gotten out of the shower and he storms into the kitchen ( i hate to say but he is fully dressed) hair all wet and his shirt buttoned only half way, gets me everytime. He's high in almost every scene but its his last completed film so it had to make the cut lol.

Adding my 10c - I feel this picture says it all, loud and clear.

5. Jack Dawson - Titanic

Leo's on purely because most girls who grew up in the 90s [us included] wanted, required a Titanic poster to breathe at some point or another in their lives. We can admit it.. with a cringe on my part. We refer to this as part of the blonde boy phase.. c'mon, you went through it too!

4.Rick O'Connell / David Green - The Mummy + School Ties

I don't know what I'd do without Mon to share my movie loves with. We unanimously agree that Brendan Fraser was beyong beautiful and brilliant in both these movies. Drawback? He has short hair in School Ties and the whole ending up with Rachel Weisz kinda ruined it for me in the Mummy.. but he's just so damn hot. Whether in a trench coat or a 1920s hunter *swoon* outfit.. he does it for us!

3. Chase Hammond - Drive Me Crazy

So strange to think that when Mon first watched this at 14 she thought he was eww, and now she wants to bloody kick herself, what the hell was she thinking? He's bloody gorgeous in this movie, like omg. Grungy, loner (Kind of), rebel, shit stirer, sarcastic, generally not giving a shit bout anything and dark haired. 

Why cant every girl have a boy next door like him? I prefer him 'pre make-over' but he's still hot when he's in a clean shirt lol. Oh man i love when he appears at the prom at the end. That slide, that glide and the oh not so subtle 'I was hoping to cut in.' There is no man hotter that Chase for me [yours truly].. but to get to ten, we continue.

2.  Jack Tavern - Speed 

Aside from the fact that he wears a tight, white wife beater throughout the whole film, he's one guy i prefer with short hair. He's so rugged and ripped in this movie (have a look at those arms would u) that it makes u melt and silently curse Sandra Bullock. Oh and the best part...when he ends up all dirty and sweaty by the end with big tears in his shirt... Oh Lord, Have Mercy! This is entirely Mon's description, but I agree absolutely, not only that I totally appreciate the man in the Matrix, so extra brownie points from me!

1. Don Juan / Edward Scissorhands 

In the movies with the same name, Johnny Depp rocks us all over and repeat! God must have been in a very good mood when he made this man. Best part of all, he has long hair in it. Im sure u understand the whole Johnny Depp thing anyway, so no need to go on.. We rest our case and head off to watch one of the said hunks [we mean, movies] *breathe in, breathe out*

Boardgames, Bananas and Binks'.

Just a quick update on the festivities of tonight. Binks is an Amazing chef. Her steak and potatoe bake were absolutely mind-blowing. The entrees [yes! she treated us to a three course homemade meal!] were scrumptious garlic and butter slices with an accompaniment of prawns in a delicious sauce. Hmmm.

I dont think Ive laughed this much since the last time the four of us, Binks, Em and Gus [plus yours truly] were in front of a board game together. Tonight, being hosted by the brilliant Binks saw a Wii being implemented. Trivial Pursuit was belly rockingly funny! Gus insists I cheat - by shouting out the wrong answers which, when played see the contestant lose a turn. I maintain that everytime I got the answer right they chose to not follow me - whereas when I was wrong or kidding they would decide to extend the borders of the circle of trust for me.

Needless to say, the end of the evening saw me at the outer corners of the circle of trust. Hehe, ah well. All is fair in boardgames and battles.

Em surprised everyone [including herself] as to how clever she actually is! Her wedge grew at lightening speeds - alrite, so we all helped a little. But it was definitely 90% her. Binks, Lady Band Six that she is capable of challenging gave her a good run in the middle of the game, and at the end there wasnt too much of a point difference.

I brought up the rear with Gus falling into fourth place.. which isnt bad considering Binks and I were being our usual disruptive selves for most of the playing.

All in all, viennetta dessert capped off what was a brilliant evening going bananas.

*Note to self: spend much more quality time at Binks'*

Bruised In Transit

Granted the last few posts have been overly sentimental. Reading over, I may as well dye my hair ebony, apply white chalk to my face and paint my room gray. Or I could share the resolution and waltz a little further down, what has been a turbulent few days.

I think I know where I stand now. There is to be a wedding. There is also, to be a secret. I shall have a drink to Him&Her and wish them all the best. I think it says somewhere in the friend rulebook, if you move forward, you learn a lesson.

Eerily enough, a friend today said every boy teaches us girls something. From brush your teeth twice a day if you want to be re-kissed; to the advantages and disadvanatges of circumsized vs uncircumsized penis'. The key is to remember each lesson learnt.

Note to self: try uncircumsized penis before your twenty-five.

The trouble with any lesson, I find, is implementing the example. Wanting what you can have and doing what you should do are all well and good lessons; but where would the fun be in implementing that.

I really am going to hell, aren't I?

In brighter news, DiffBoy promised he would sit beside me in Tartarus. I might even get to whip him, if I make it first. Which at the rate Im going, might just happen..

*disconditioned, bruised and shifted into transit*

Jealousy and choking on alibis'

There are now 48 hours between me, a deadline and a death.

Come Wednesday morning, some will be burnt, others removed and some destroyed. Somehow I see myself losing out in each of those scenarios. I think I'll be left to cover the burns, deal with the collateral and pick up after the destruction. Thank Gumby for plum jam is all Im saying. I think after I survive the next two days, Im going to need some serious drowning and plum jam will be my savior.

The deadline- first two chapters of my thesis, or at least an introduction and the first official chapter. All weekend, I haven't been able to do any work on anything, my mind keeps going over certain events and I come back to this horrible realisation that we've moved on from the awkward into the nasty. Im running out of alibis' that help avoid thessy, though.


The death, that remains to be seen. Am I capable of walking away from a friend who has come to mean a bit more?

Honestly? I think, maybe its time I saved him and returned years of the same favour.

After all, isnt that what friends do.