His own personal space

You know that smell, the one guys gets when they haven't showered for twenty-four hours but they have found time to do all those other things that healthy, well adjusted, somewhat yummy males do. MHmm.. you can smell it now can't you? That very masculine smell that's a good strong mixture of sweat, man and work.

Sometimes it is grass mixed with two parts underarm and one part groin - if he's been asserting his manliness on the field. Other times its metallic cool combined with frustration and moist palms with pearls of perspiration that trickles down and across his forehead while thinking of lyrics that aren't full of cliches.

It could be the very sweet sweat that drenches his armpits and seeps into the creases of his pants right before he comes up to you and stammers out a greeting or better still a really well thought out, but unfortunatley terribly delivered.

My personal favourite has to be a boy I met about 3 months ago. He has to be the sweetest thing Ive come across for a long while and in the one minute or so I stood all, up close and personal with him he smelt like a boy who was one part man, one part sweet, two parts sexy and yummy all over.

Wanted

The difference between needs and wants. I think Ive finally worked it out. A few weeks ago, a very sexy boy left me with this:

"When you realise that you dont need, but want someone; that sweetheart, makes all the difference"

At the time, I shrugged him off. But in retrospect I think I get it. Needing is when your life depends on the other persons, when everything you do seems irrelevant to what they do. But thats unhealthy, obsessive and a huge lie. How can you be so dependent on someone else?

Wouldn't it be better to want? Where what you feel is based only on the fact that you enjoy every aspect of that person- not because you depend on it, but because they genuinely make you happy. Needs and wants. I dont think anyone wants to be needed- thats what children require- they need love, attention, somebody else to care for them, make them feel important.

Shouldn't we, as grown ups [adults, even] want? Want to be happy with someone, want to be with the person because its choice and free will. Not obligation or forced in anyway?

I dont know.

I could be totally screwed, but I want to be wanted.

Not needed.